.azrina ahmad.

.perasmian penutupan & peletakan jawatan.

2009-10-23T21:14:00.000-07:00

seperti yang follower sume tahu, this is where i'll write if i can't keep it alone or if i can't stand it anymore,
walaubagaimanapun, kini, saya dah ade tempat lebih baek utk bercerita, di k.a.a@m.n,
jadi, dengan ini, saya sudah tidak memerlukan perkhidmatan blogspot ini lagi.
oleh yang demikian, saya, azrina anak ahmad dengan rasminya menutup laman blog azrinadec@blogspot.com.
sekian,

[ [ azrina.ahmad ] ]

breaking the rules - words to myself

2009-08-29T08:48:00.000-07:00

okay, dah lame dah xtype ni.
fuhh, baru abes test far n maf tadi, moderate.

whats new in my life?
urm, saya sudah terlanggar pantang larang yg saya buat first2 saya masuk puncak.
tapi xpee.
relax azrina relax.
stay dengan 'framework'.
yes,
jangan gelabah.
okay okay.
dah terlanggar nak buat mcm mane kan, go v the flow,
tapi bersedialah dgn effect2 nya lepas ni.
kalau it give a better result, then its fated that i broke the rule.
tapiii kalau ia suatu bencana!, jangan regret, calm down.
well, it just some part of ur lifecycle, to experience.

chill weh chill, jangan gelabah!

.imbau.

2009-07-30T21:55:00.000-07:00

during this holi laptop saya buat hal, so semua folder dalam tu hilang,

including background cantik2 yang saya jumpa tapi xingat katne. alaaa. so saye menggodek godek balik pc rumah utk mencari jika terdapat sisa2 background. tapi,

lain pula yg saya jumpa,

gamba2 lama yang sangat mengimbau semua memori, di zaman sekolah.

team sidang redaksi @ team ponteng kelas atas urusan redaksi. haha.

gang belajar oo. ni muka tiap2 petang g library. hagaga. instead of belajar, this is what we do, haha. ;PP

menikmati akhir persekolahan while spm is bout 3 4 mths to go.

selain itu, kami;

meronggeng tiap tiap petang~~

berikut adalah gambar yg purposenya utk d masukkan ke dalam majalah sekolah;

&& zaman tyme tunggu results ;

ini steven, my crush. haha. tp dah lame dah.

when this pict was taken, all the girls scream like craaaazzy!

ini, nama dia amir, dia org iran, and everyday punn mesti die cari gaduh dgn saya. n he stinks, selalu bau arak. wekk!

&& juga kenangan mula2 ke Ulife.di jamuan raya.

suicidal, & the guys, haha. not related okay.

dan, jika dibandingkan dengan sekarang, semuanya sudah berubah, yang bersatu dah berpecah.

yang bertikam lidah dah berbaik.

ada baik dan buruknya, dan itulah kehidupan, wahhh

saya sangat rinduuuu dengan kehidupan yang tenang bersama security.

azrina.ahmad

[ [ posted ] ]

.error.

2009-07-03T02:29:00.001-07:00

he scared me,
every single word, every single msg he texted me,
gave me worries.
does he still have any feeling twrds me?
he told me, he doesnt believe me nymore,
he doesn't believe my words,
he told me, im not more than a liar to him,
he call me liar a lots of time, but i didn't mind,
bcoz that what he thought of me.
i didn't mind,
bcoz he still befriended me.
but his messages shows the feeling.
the indescribable feeling.
i've told him i would NEVER be with him,
he's to good for me.
i'll just ruin his perfect life.

things' get more and more complicated.
i can't just stop contacting him,
coz i knw, coz my frens said so,
he'll lost his direction.

now, i'm pretending.
i always pretend,
maybe u'll call me a liar again n again,
but if i dont keep doing this,
who'll giv the support that i usually give?
who'll b ur tears when u wanna cry?
who'll listen to all of ur future plan?
i do this because i had to.
no intention to lie.
forgive me.

.cuti semenggu yang kurasakan sangat bosan.

2009-07-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

during intersession, i really look forward for this 1week holiday, but it seems to be no fun at all,
with me gatalgatal grounding myself from using car (my sis') for 4weeks, and with all the dates i made but then been cancelled, the only things yang best during this holiday iss i make a lottttts of new friends, including enemy iaitu qila! haha. just go through my kebosanan schedule for this holi.

urm,
where shud i start,
ok, 25th tu,
after abes lcci, terus balik rumah, uncle ahmad n aunt zainon yang ambil.
sggah kdai mkn sbentar then terus balik.
sampai rumah petang dlm kul 3, buat laundry suma, susun atur barang then tidur sampai ke pagi xjagajaga, letih woo angkat barang suma.

26th, its friday, nothing much, sepatutnya date dgn muna tgk transformer, tapi dye belot, dye g dgn lee,
so, my dad nak betulkan tiles bilik yangg dah pecah pecah on saturday jadi the whole day kene mengemas,
segala baju dalam closet kene masuk plastic, ehh aimi kate supik gelenya.
barang barang suma kena masuk kotak.
2am, tidur.

27th, walaupun ade org dtg repair tiles tuu, aku still bangun pukul 12, heh, then rutin kehidupan yg biasa itu, n ish xde pape oh sabtu tu, kan dah kata, bosann.

28th, ni ahad kan, ok, rutinnya sama juga dgn sabtu, upacara membetulkan tiles maseh lagi berjalan, applied for jpa scholar, hope dapat.

29th, mundane monday, lepas subuh tidur bangun kul12, then rutinnya mkn bfast, on laptop tgk big bang, mkn lunch, onlineeeeee sampai parents blk kerja, then xde pape, uhh, bosan. );

30th, selasa, semalam kan? sama juga dgn ari senin, woke up at 12noon, had bfast, had lunch, online, call pn.ilmiah, parents balik kerja, tlg my mom for dinner, tgk big bang, sis janji nak tgk transformer esk tp kena cancel sbb cuti dia kena tarik, xde mood, tidur at 1245am kott.

omg, its the first of july! yeah, tp still, woke up at 12, had mild bfast, watched big bang, onlineeee sampai parents balik, haha, call pn.ilmiah, dinner, now, online, posting new blog, OMG bosan!

satu minggu yg merugikan duhh!

azrina.ahmad
sigh''

[ [ posted ] ]

.xsabar nii.

2009-06-28T22:33:00.000-07:00

cepatlah masuk sem 3,
dah xsabar ni.
then cepatlah abes sem 3,
nak cuti sebulan,
xsabar ni.
then masuk sem 4, cepatlah,
xsabar ni.
then melalui intersesi,
xbest! tapi xsabar ni.
and then~~ grad! ahh cool!
cepatlah, xsabar nii.

xlarat lah.

azrina.ahmad
bosan dah tunggu

[ [ posted ] ]

.terus atau henti.

2009-06-25T19:41:00.000-07:00

kalaulahkaubolehsabar,maybeadeharapan,tapikaupendesak.sikit.
so,rasemacamxdapatnakkateyesbuatmasani.teruslagijadikawan,
kalaukoxtahannakkawanje,xdapatlah.tapiifoneday,iseethepartthat
canmakemechangemyperceptionaboutu.maybeboley.sabarlaa.taw.

azrina.ahmad

'tidak tahu lagi'

.pergi pulang semula.

2009-06-25T19:40:00.000-07:00

dah ok dah ;DD.

love you lagi dear!

azrina.ahmad
cured

[ [ posted ] ]

.kau tetap pergi.

2009-06-19T07:04:00.000-07:00

sayup, terpisah,
hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
berhembus, angin rindu
begitu nyaman nya terhidu wangian kasihmu.

hujan lebat mencurah kini bagaikan tiada henti,
kau lah laguku kau irama terindah,
tak lagi ku dengari.

kau pergi,
pergi.

sepi, tanpa kata
terdiam dan kaku,
tak daya kau ku lupa,
apapun kata mereka,
biarkan kenangan berbunga di ranting usia,

hujan lebat mencurah kini, bagaikan tiada henti,
kau lah laguku kau irama terindah tak lagi ku dengari,

kau pergi,
pergi.

azrina yang berduka.
hati sangat terluka.

[ [ posted ] ]

.redha,

2009-06-18T09:56:00.000-07:00

aku dah tersayang dye,

walaupun sebagai kawan,

yang aku selalu share story semua.
tapi, dia xmahu macam ni sahaja,
aku pun,
tapi aku xboleh nak terima,
buat masa terdekat ni memang xde chance.
so, aku dah decide,
aku akan terus sayang and care pasal dye,
sbb aku sangat sayang kawan2 yang baik dengan aku,
kalau dia mahu pergi,
pergilah,
good for him,
takkan nak aku sahaja yang happy,
dia pulak kene tahan semua perasaan.
so,
whats good for him, is good for me too.
love u dear.

.sudah lama tidak menulis.

2009-06-13T21:36:00.000-07:00

ok.
letting some of it out.

sekarang aku sangat xmahu ada kaitan dengan manusia yang jantinanya lelaki.
mereka amat menakutkan.

sumpah, cukup laa kawan lelaki yang aku ade sekarang,
aku xnak tambah lagi.
bcuz,
bile aku stat tambah, bertambah juga la masalah aku.

omgg, sangat pedih hati.
cepatlah habeskan this period of my life.

i want to say 'no'.
tapi surely laen sangat jadi pasni.
omg, aku rase macam tgh bg false hope sekarang ni.

"i cant accept u,
no matter how hard u try to change, for me,
i cant and i cant,
i dont trust 'hubungan jarak jauh'.
i dont trust someone like u.
i dont feel secured when im with u,
i dont feel protected by you,
or even by your words.
we came from two very different world.
different tought.
different social life.
different friends.
different point of view of life.
we'll not and never complete each other."
i wish i could say this to him.
i just dont have the srength to tell.

i like u, yes i do,
but there's nothing more but just as a good friend,
as a best friend,
as a closed friend,
as a friend that i can tell stories of my life.
but i just cant share my life with u.
i appreciate u dear,
yes u shine my life,
but. please.

jangan.

god, help me, i can't do this.
[ [ azrina.ahmad ] ]

perluu ke?

2009-05-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

saya sedang memikirkan apa baiknya ber blog menceritakan kehidupan sendiri?
menyuarakan pandangan sendiri.
jadi, saya bercadang untuk meng'abolish' blog saya.
sokongan cadangan atau comment?

.penghijrahan.

2009-03-12T21:23:00.000-07:00

continuation from azam baru saya itu.
saya dah betul betul tekad untuk meneruskannya.

dan dengan ini saya mengisytiharkan ia sebagai suatu penghijrahan!
penghijrahan sempena ulangtahun kelahiran junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.
hijrah itu perjuangan!
hijrah itu pengorbanan!
hijrah azrina hijrah!
=l

p/s : hijrah ialah suatu perubahan daripada yang
buruk kepada sesuatu yang lebih baik. aminn.

azrina.ahmad

[ [ posted ] ]

.anjakan sedikit paradigma.

2009-03-11T06:21:00.001-07:00

kerana suatu peristiwa yang berlaku pada hari khamis yang lalu,
saya sangat malu.

dan weekend itu saya balik rumah, dan isnin juga cuti maulud nabi.

apabila ditambah hal ke- malu -an saya pada hari khamis dan maulud nabi tu,
say dah jumpa azam baru.
saya sempenakannya azam maulidurRasul.
ade kawankawan yang sudah tawu perihal azam itu.
please give me full support because i really need it.
dah lah azam kali ni bende yang paling aku benci, jadi aku perlukan sokongan kalian.
sekian,
tabik to myself!

azrina.ahmad

[ [ posted ] ]

maf 220

2009-03-03T00:19:00.000-08:00

i've just finished my maf class.

we learnt about oar thingy, bout the blanket what-so-ever rate.

and i found out that maf is sooooooo menyusahhkann hidup.

i remember tya said that maf is the only subject that she could get an A.

i salute her for real laa.

i think maf is so difficult because every sem we wont be having any similar question with any of those past semesters'.

we cant predict in what way the question will ask us.

and ianya sangat menyusahkan okeng.

i love maf but i hate it as much as i love it.

anyone out there got any suggestion, any advice or any petua to settle my problem?

lagi sebulann woh nak final dah!

*struggling*

[ [ posted ] ]

.sekarang.

2009-02-28T06:14:00.000-08:00

i'm very sorry to my followers or anyone that hope to read something on my blog.

recently, i'm a lil bit bz with college, assignments, tests and quizzes.

so i'm not very convenience to go online and update my blog.

furthermore, my final is juz a month to go.

so i have to reserve 90% of my life for study.

main pt here : i won't be updating my blog until May.

i'm very sorry for the inconvenience.

sorry,

azrina.ahmad

[ [ posted ] ]

.tatido lagii?.

2009-02-04T10:46:00.000-08:00

tonite was aftas committee election ceremony,
it was quite boring, andd fun. duhh? haha
yeah, with all the screamss andd denials, fun though.
the boring part was when they started to blablabla 'bout all the aftas committee at indukk stuff.
*like i care*
andd the funniest part of all,
when hadi was selected to be the 'bidan terjun' candidate for part 3 representative.
andd by luck or by what, he managed to get 2nd highest vote,
and very close to be picked as aftas president! gila.
haha wengG!
but its a waste laa bcoz pikka wasnt there!
lol!
so yeah, meor is our new president. yay!

yeah, now i'm at pika n fara's room,
after i told them the whole story of that election things from A to Z,
fuhh baruu habess cerite dgn dorg nehh.

haaa, satu cerite yang kelakar terjadi tadi,
bile aku nak cerite pasall membe kitorg yang hidung mancung so aku ibaratkan hidung dye mcm hidung 'banggali' tapi si pikaa nii boley pulak dengar hidung 'lubang gali'.
passtu dye gelakkan aku sampai tergolekgolek tergulingguling melanggar tilam sampai terjatuh badan melanggar almari, pergh citer bagi letopp je, andd ini sebab dye ingat aku jahat sangatt nak gelar member hidung ber lubang gali.
wengG.
adoyy, sound trouble yang teramat sangatt.

thats all for todayy, sanggat beku otakk, dah pukul 3pagi, esk ade postponed quiz eco yang aritu punyee.
andd have i finished my revision?

.its crazy.

2009-02-02T08:39:00.000-08:00

23:34 02.02.2009

disaster disaster!!
tomorrow i got an ECO test, and the hell, im having a good nice fever right now!
and a cute damn runny nose!
macam manee nak buat revision,, otak dahh bekku.
i'm thinking of skipping BEL class tomorrow morning and have a good nice sleep in the morning so i could wake up an hour before ECO test and have a damn kelamkabut ECO revision,
so that atleast i could answer the test.
buut i don't think its a good wise action.

andd this so-called ujian yang Allah bagi saye demam + selsema sebelum test,
saye mengharapkan ada hikmahnye.

andd also, tomorrow night is my next futsal match.
dengan keadaan yang mcm neyy, boley perform ke?

-damn piggletenn-

[ [ posted ] ]

check!

2009-01-31T06:18:00.000-08:00

okay. let see what we got here,
a checklist! yay!

things to do after i reached puncakk :

pergi rumah ainul / wani , tgk slide mgt. *dah susahkan dorang banyakkk*
belajar dgn aimi , utk maf. *peningpening lagii*
pergi rumah ain, for far. *banyakk kali ajar pun maseh benggap!*
selesaikan buku bel strideahead yg ade lopanglopang
study utk eco, quiz next week
gather v aimi, thia and mely, settle ctu
jumpa farah, nak tau ape kess.
arrange a dinner date w meza.
pegi lib, return buku.

sekian buat mase ini,

[ [ posted ] ]

.matilaa.

2009-01-30T23:08:00.000-08:00

after subuh this morn, i went back to sleep.
then, around 8, i terjage but yeah i continued my sleep. again.
and the hell, i tersalah pose tidur andd i got this sudden ache on my neck.
which is really really menyusahkan. i cant turn my head left.
so i got to move my body over when someone call me from behind or to look back.
seksanyaaaaa!
i've tried putting yokoyoko on my neck, but nothing diff.
andd! tomoro i'm going back to puncakk okeng, will this pain get cure in a day??

ouhh shyt.
dah la banyakk gilerr barang nak bwk!
tinggkat lima lagii!
dengan saket kat tengkukkk.
g-d-i

[ [ posted ] ]

.lalutansiazrina.dontbother.

2009-01-30T08:24:00.000-08:00

okeng. walaupun sudah menghabiskan banyak masemase ku menonton 'alot'. i think it makes me realise how bertuahnye me. i can study , play , and do things i wanna do. but still, i masih tidak bersyukur with everythg that i have, that i own. enn. so starting from the tick i wrote this, i swear to myself.

i'll study v all my heart
i'll be very very very commited v every single things that i joined
i'll be very very kind to my friends andda will appreciate every single moment i have v them
andda ape lagii? haha! tatawu arr

saje je wanna dedicate a piece of writing to ma blog. so bile saya sudah tersempang jaoo, i'll read this entry and make up myself back together.

.a litre of tears.

2009-01-30T01:05:00.000-08:00

a litre of tears ni is a japanese movie. but yaa penting cerita ni sangat menyayat hati. sepanjang aku tgk cerite ni, every 5mins mesti nanges. serius yayat hati! cerite ni dah kuar tv time aku form5 lagi, which means 2007. tapi mcm spm year kot so taade mase mau tgk. ni, aku baru pinjam dvd dari naie. and sorangsorang tonton, memang sedih giler laa. can u just imagine, umur kau orang baru 15 then kau orang kene saket yg memang taboley sembuh, tapi tamati, cume maken jadi cacat. memang serious shyt sedey! maken hilang keupayaan berjalan, bercakap, makan n menggerak kan body. its a torture arr boley kate. and and cerita ni, based on real life story taw. lagi lah sentap. nak nak pulak yang melakonkan watak ni gurl yg comell! *i'm not a gay okay*. tapi bagi aku memang comell.

what do you think?? >>
kat sini baru 60% dari kecomelan dye. haha!

and dalam citer ni, this gurl minat dgn sorang basketballer, and si basketballer tu tingggalkan dye after he knows bout her disease. b*** betull!

basketballer tuu>>

haha ;DD. so yang kekal setia menjage this gurl ialah rakan sekelasnye, yang muke ala ala thailand jee.

and conclusionnye, cerita ni teramat sangat sedey okay!

what is it?

2009-01-29T07:27:00.000-08:00

aduhh, baru sekejap tadi rase nak type something, tappi da lupe ape dye. enn xpe rr, let me write something else. menu menu hott aku kalau pergi makan kedai mamak : 1. teh ais 2. limau ais 3. barli suam 4. roti banjir kuah kari campur dal letak telur mata sato [haha meleleh!] 5. roti naan 6. nasi goreng ayam [kat deen shj]. menu menu hott aku kalau makan kat kandang : 1. limau ais 2. tomyam campur + nasi putih 3. nasi goreng padprik 4. nasi goreng cendawan special 5. milo ais 6. teh ais. menu hott aku kalau makan mcD : mcvalue mcchicken 1large set + 1 mcchicken ala carte. ish sudahsudah cukup pasal makanan. ~end~ ngai la, aku still tadapat ingat ape mende aku nak post sgt td enn. tapi taape, mari aku menggarut! aku ade beberape assignment lagi tidak disettlekan, beberape subjek yang patut kene revise tapi aku dah fed up coz endingnye -i still dont understand. ~end~ haa! dah ingat! ni one of th thgs i wanna post. pasal kurita. ayah aku da promise diz sem aku dapat kereta, and ishhhhh sebabkan kawankawan aku bagi masalah kat aku, ayah aku tarik balik janji dye! gilerr tense taw x! aku mukan nak put the blame on myfriend, sebab mmg inten aku nak tolong mereka. tapi ayah aku cakap aku 'mudah kalah' dgn kawan. kawan minx tolong semua kate okeng, dah aku rase aku ley buat, aku kate laa okeng. ayah aku bagi alasan tarik balik perjanjian kereta tu nanti kalau kat puncak membe mintak tolong g sane g sini aku akan kate okay je. xreti nak kate taboley. lol, kalau ikut pun memang da boley naape nak kate taboley. aiyoyo, nak kasi aku bwk kereta g puncakk je kott, pun susah. tapi taape rr. maybe he's right. kereta will only bring more difficulties to me. dengan karenah kawankawan laggi. walaupun aku sedang berkabung tapi macamm redha je rr. ~end~ ade lagi nak story, tapi sudah lupa la kawann. taape, aku kan suke post beribu, nanti da engat aku post lagi! dadaa~

[ [ posted ] ]

.'sayangg'.

2009-01-28T07:27:00.000-08:00

if i 'sayangg' everyone around me,
if i 'sayangg' people that i care,
if i 'sayangg' new people in my life,
(which currently getting to know him/her better),
if i 'sayangg' people that doesn't 'sayangg' me,
if i just 'sayangg' without boundaries,

is it fair for some people to call me player?
is it wrong for me to 'sayangg' everyone?

i sayangg everyone okeng!
i sayangg anyone that i want to sayangg~
i sayangg u who're reading this blog.
i sayangg okay, i sayangg.

.sorry.

2009-01-26T00:56:00.000-08:00

sesiapa je.
yang dah aku sakiti.
aku mohon ampun.
kalau susah untuk kamu maafkan,
xpe, ambillah mase.
cume harapkan kemaafan darimu.
agar tidak aku dan kamu disoal di sana kelak.
ini semua permainan dunia.
mengakulah kelemahan kita dan jadilah semulia- mulia manusia.
bukan niat berkhutbah, aku cube betuli diri juge.
hubungan sangat unik, anugerah dari Allah, janganlah kite cacatkannya.
kerana sikap dan ego kemanusiaan.
aku sayangg kau.
walau kau musuh aku.
asalkan kau Islam,
kau saudaraku,
aku sayangg kau.

[ [ posted ] ]

.we're in the same shoes.

2009-01-25T08:13:00.000-08:00

gilakk arh.
today dari pagi sampai malam berjalan xterhenti henti!
actually there was reunion at klcc taw, but i didnt go.
bcuz my bestie didnt go.~
and so, pagi tuu i went with my dad n mom to buy some decor for my bro's house.
dari breakfast d pasar, kami ke otk, and seterusnye lightzone d batu caves.
then, i was like really want to go out so i text meza and asked her out.
we decided to go to klcc.
tengahari camtu la was our date.
jalan jalan dalam klcc, kami hanya berjaya menjumpai selipar.
at first, meza jee nak beli new sandals,
somehow me too gatal gatal mawu membeli a pair of seeliparr.
so i bought one.

then, tot nak survey bag for me to class.
so we went to sg. wang [yang aku xtawu tempat tu jual ape sebenarnye].
passed through pavilion then reached sungai weng, upsz wangg.
jalan jalan lagi, matlamat tersasar,
instead of buying bag,
we bought a new same pairs of shoes.
WE. SAME.

story: kami lalu lalu d sebuah kedai yang menjual kasut,
mata kami tertarik pada sepasang kasut,
yg harganya sgt murah,
rm75 jee.
ye larr, everlast 75 tu kire murah kott.
so mcm kitorg gelabah nak beli ke x.
mez kate "ina, whether u buy it or i'll buy it"
so i was like 'bang, saye nak try try dulu boley x? xbeli rr, try try je'
and orang kedai tu ponn kate ok.
haha.
tgh bagi2 size, die bg la size 7 skali.
so meza pun try.
and kami berdua pun terpikat pada kasut yangg same!
hahaha.
so we did bought the exactly same shoes, same colour, same shop, same brands, different sizes!
haha.
funny la kau ni mez.
gilak sahaja kita ni bha!
-end-

then, after hantar meza blk, my sis call me n said that they [my fam] wanna go to ikea.
i was like 'nak ikutt nak ikutt'
so we met there lah, at ikea tu.
so jalan jalan jalan lagi, til 9pm baru blk.

conclusion : dari pagi sampai malam jalan jalan n jalan n sangat lah letihnya!

p/s : kalau ade request mawu tgk gamba kasut n selipar tu, i'll post it later.

[ [ posted ] ]

.shocking truth.

2009-01-24T07:47:00.000-08:00

unexpected.
ya, love.
friendship.
happen.
we never know.
to my two bestie,
ini bukan salah sape sape, bukan salah korang.
chill babe.
i love you guys!

done with him!

2009-01-24T07:29:00.000-08:00

aku dah kate dah, aku anggau ngan dye sbb aku xlepak ngan dye dah after our first met.
so cam giler bayang la.

so mlm **** tu, kami ke kandang.
and thanks to Allah,
d buka pintu hatiku untuk melihat keburukannya.
haha.
masalahnye, aku tataw ape yg burukk, but
what that i found is he's not my type.
no.

and ku berterima kaseh
kerana
sekarang aku dah macam dulu.
.independent.
*bout certain things je
guys? = no need!
kawan boley la.

sekarang aku sudah muley concentrate on study.
thank you thank you thank you

futsal night

2009-01-24T07:11:00.000-08:00

arrite.
on the futsal night,
raining heavily.
so we only get started around 9pm.

one of my teammate can't make it cos he injured his leg.
nevermind its ok.
and about that f***ing boy in my team,
i'm glad he's no jerk that night.

everything went very very very smooth.

ehh haa,
tetapi, mule mule sangat frustrated ingat die xdatang.
xde semanggat.
but then, after rain stopped, he came!
gosh!
terbakar membara bara semanggat. =DD

ok ok, enough bout him.

kitorg patut ade 3match taw,
then kitorg menang 2 match sbb opponent xdtg.
another match kalah 2-0.
huhu, we make it to quarter final laa. and quarter final is on th 3rd of February.
anda semua di jemput hadir ye.
hahaha, lots of funny thgs happen that night taw tp yg sangat amat xboleh belah when faiq sepak bola and kene kepala keeper sampai keeper pecah mulut.
haha.
powerr laa tuu.

balikk tu sangat sangat penat and study la far n qmt utk quiz esoknye.
that night i studied qmt n wtf, qmt quiz was cancelled.
so, that morning kelam kabut prepare for far.
rase mcm dah done well, tp no comment la.

story story

2009-01-24T07:06:00.000-08:00

i got a loooooot of stories to post.
i'll do it one by one arrite.
keep reading!

.azroy.

2009-01-19T16:28:00.000-08:00

happy 13th birthday!
to my younger brother.
sorry alang cant celebrate your day today.
miss you.
may you have a more prosperous year!

[ [ posted ] ]

tonight will be the night that i will fall on shit!

2009-01-19T15:57:00.000-08:00

this is crazy weih.
all shit!

this night i'll be playing futsal,
with that fucking boy in my team.

and and too add morree shit on it,
he'll b coming to watch his friends play!
(this is the other boy, not that f**king boy)
and of courseee he'll see me play.
will. by accident or no.

ouhhhh gosh, put more damn on it please!
crap crap crap.

i dont even know how to kick the ball
to where it should be kicked.

i'm sure it will be my worst night ever.

x pe lah. layann je rr. duhh, gelak puas2 d siang hari!

and and to all aftas fellas,
come to watch us tonight,
and support our team -->> OMG
(idan gave that name)

WISH ME THE BEST OF LUCK!
NOT THE BEST OF FUCK!

[ [ posted ] ]

.semanggat.

2009-01-16T07:52:00.000-08:00

i bought a new futsal shoes!

just to play on th 20th purpose.

.semanggat!.

walaupun saya sangat confirm dgn instinct yg kuat saya akan kalah.

bought a cheap one only.

like desperation going to explain~

but its cute taw.

datang support me and my new shoeson 20th jan at uitm shah alam!!

haha

semuga nasib menyebelahi team kami.

pantang tewas sebelum berundur!

gagaga.

[ [ posted ] ]

.untuk kau!.

2009-01-16T07:03:00.000-08:00

kamu begitu keliru,

menjadi selalu begitu.

masalah dengan fikirmu,

harus kamu sedari,

sebelum diri dibenci,

sedari dirimu sendiri.

memandang jatuh lain,

sudahkah kamu memandangmu?

aku mahu serumu,

degilmu selalu kakuku,

aku biar sahaja jika,

rosak terus depanmu.

ku rukis nukilan sanuku,

kau baca dan terasalah.

hidup tentangmu bukan,

fikirkan kelilingmu ada.

jangan beku hati,

suatu memakan diri.

ego dikurangi,

jahil dijauhi.

tunduk dengan hati,

bila bertemu Pencipta.

lalu kamu menyedari,

lakumu sebelum ini.

aku sedia maafi,

jangan kau sendiri.

.oT.!!

2009-01-16T06:17:00.000-08:00

am i mad?

have i lost my mind?

story :

my faculty ll be having a futsal night on this 20thJan.

and every futsal team must consist of 8players : 6boys and 2girls.

&& today is th last day to submit the entry form.

idan (my classmate) want to join the tournament,

*really want to, though*

but the problem is no girl on his team.

and well, u can guess what happen right.

8'I

i just can't help to see my friend in need.

and i just say 'arrite' *after a few condition i put*

so i'll be playing futsal on this 20th.

but that's not the problem.

the big big BIG problem isss,

there's this one guy on my team which i really really REALLY hate him!

how can i play with him?
how can i?
how am i going to do it?
to just play?

urgh, sangat stupiduous decision la tadi.

idan, aku xnyesal join team ko. tapi ade haiih dye tu!

.shitt.

semuge saya buleyh!

p/s : to all uitm'ss, support us!

[ [ posted ] ]

thank you abe man! =]

2009-01-14T10:34:00.000-08:00

15thJan2009 12.49am

Yesterday’s night, I hung out with my friends, my new friends, and it was after dinner.

We sat at our college’s dining area from 9pm I think, till 12 midnight.

You would say it’s a waste of time, but I learnt a very very very valueable thing last night.

He made me realise how far have I go from where I start. It isn’t like how far good, it is how bad far have I leaned away from my real intention of coming here.

Here, to Puncak Perdana, to University, to this World though.

Thankz Abe Man, maybe you didn’t realise that you have done a great job. Of making me realise where am I. where should I be. Why have I come to this far.

Ya, it’s true you just told me about your life, but it somehow opened my eyes. I am able to see this world in a way I should see it.

I was glad, and very grateful.

I am.

I’m glad that I took the challenge to change, to live in a new environment.

Surrounding day by day makes me more mature. Mature in my thought, style, life and all.

Grateful. Not everybody got this chance like I do. Like they always said “bile kamu mengingati Allah, nescaya Dia akan mengingatimu”. Now I really know what does it means.

I’m improving myself.

But,

I always ‘leka’. I always need a friend to motivate me, to at least say a word that will get me back to reality as I’m flying away with my dreams and enjoying the heaven of Earth.

I’m going to sleep now, and I hope I’ll wake up tomorrow with a new me, with a better me.

InsyaAllah.

[ [ posted ] ]

you friends.

2009-01-14T10:27:00.000-08:00

13thJan2009

Urm, its 5.34 pm. I haven’t perform Asar yet. But I just want to type something before I do.

I don’t have any broadband here in Puncak, so I just type it in my lappy so that I just can cut and paste it once I get back home.

Nothing much for today, though I still want to type something.

It’s inside my heart, deep inside. I don’t know what is it, but they got all mixed up in there.

I’ve tried to ask myself what’s wrong, and there’s no answer. I don’t feel easy right now. Guilty. Hatress. Scared. Unsecure. Loveable. Happy. Unhappy. Discriminated. Uhh, it just got soooo mixed up in there.

I want to cry out my tears. Without reason. Illogical? Can I do it here? In a place which is strange for me to even share my jokes, or to be myself.

Ya, it’s true. It’s their right to choose friend from ‘their’s. But please la, we’re in U okay. Get rid of your racist thingy.

Hahaha. p/s : to much addition actually, there isn’t any problem with human[friends] poun.

Know what, to all friends of me; starting this sem, I won’t create any problem with you. I won’t disturb or get into your ‘hal’. But, if somehow you feel harmed by me, I think the problem is You yourself. Being paranoid.

I want to lead my life with my very own style, without interrupting or shadowing others. And I do really ask for my friends, if you somehow or somewhat feel disturbed by me, by my way, by my words, please let me know so that I’ll do something which will make you not only ‘undisturbed’ by me, but you’ll never ever gonna noticed my existence too. Haha.

[sigh] well, at least the pressure in my chest are getting slightly lighter after I typed this entry, now I’m going to perform my Asar prayer and ask from Allah so that everything will flow very smooth.

And I hope so from you guys, always remember me in each of your doas’ and I’ll do exactly the same.

I don’t want to create no trouble.

Forgive me my sins towards you human. ~habluminannas.

[ [ posted ] ]

Flightless bird, Malaysian mouth

2009-01-10T21:03:00.000-08:00

I was a quick, wet girl

Diving too deep for coins

All of your street light eyes

Wide on my plastic toys

Then when the cops closed the fair

I cut my long, baby hair

And stole me a dog-eared map

And called for you everywhere

Have I found you

Flightless bird, jealous, weeping

Or lost you, Malaysian mouth

Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat

Nursing my sore, blunt tongue

Watching the warm, poisoned rats

Curl through the wide fence cracks

Kissing on magazine photos

Those fishing lures

Thrown in the cold and clean

Blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you

Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding

Or lost you, Malaysian mouth

Big pill stuck going down

well, read this first

2009-01-10T20:43:00.000-08:00

haha.
its kindda funny.
ive created this account last year and i only noticed or 'remembered' that i have it just about today.
haha.

well, i'm not into writing or typing.
i dont really like to sit in front of lappy and spent 1 to 2 hours which is for me, its a waste.
but i'll make something so that all of you out there in a boring mood,
can read.

just some part of my life.

well, life is private. =D